Work has been crazy busy, and fitting fencing in has become challenging. I've managed a few practices, a lesson, and a tournament, but otherwise, I'm strapped for time. So clearly writing has gone by the wayside.
The tournament was....alright. I could have done much better, and I struggled mentally. I'm not sure how much was non-fencing stress related and how much was actually caused by the tournament. I felt unfocused and frustrated, which just kept feeding into itself. I still managed to have a pretty good time (the group that showed up to fence had some great people in it), but....
Anyways, coach insisted that I did well, that he learned a lot, and we just need to keep going with the lesson plan. I expected to get worse as I got "rebuilt" and I have so much to tackle mentally in terms of tactics and strategy that I've never really mastered. So I have a lot of work to do. It's just been difficult for several reasons. First, not having the time to put in is hard. Second, watching your husband have that one lesson that makes so much just "click" just threw in high relief that I'm not anywhere near that point yet.
Ok. Enough b*tching out of me. I don't mean to sound whiney (but I'm sure I do!). I'm hoping after Thanksgiving work will calm down a little bit. If it doesn't, I'm going to have to figure something out, since I refuse to live my life just to work. Hell, part of the reason I work is so I can afford to fence!!!
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